I have made this Life to network With All My friends , to share with Them My life , its bad and good , I will add more notes often and often ...
I would Be happy of course to Know Your responses , Comments .
1st I would Like to hear Your comments , responses & Solutions If possible
2nd I would Like to Know Your stories prbs So I can Solve Your problem as You will do .
I will begin By 1st Introducing My self :- what my personality Is really Is
1- I'M an evening Person , i woke Up at 4 Pm daily and sleep at 6 am :) I always need 10 hours of sleeping & Sometimes 12 :) , i finished My college this year & I have tried to change my routine .
i Have worked with my dad for 1 month and half But i couldn't stand it , My dad is so nervous and i have worked with many nervous people as well and i was so stressed 2 . Beside that I felt That I lost My LIFE . so Now I don 't work at all .
2- I fear 2 many things in My life
1- i fear dentists so so Much , I have about 10 bad cavities and i didnt go to the dentist from 8 months and i think i will never do it .
when I go to the dentist my heart rate increase , i shake , and i feel as i want to cry , the sensation is bad .
i been like 4 months thinking about my teeth since then & I feel regret because all my friends went to the doctor and they made their teeth normally But i failed , I feel "COward " & I regret that
i also fear dad when he shouts to me coz of the bad consequences that he may hit me and i may feel pain , even sometimes if im right and he shouts to me i can give up easily and i never defeneded my point coz im coward
2- sometimes i also keep thinking about child birth & death , i hate pain & that 's why I keep thinking about that . I didn't get married and im thinking about child 's Birth , Is that Normal Guys ?
3- Im so so stressed persons , 2 many things annoy me in my life .
when I get stressed my back , headache really really pains me , sometimes i think i really don't know what i have is that general phobia , stress, Or what ?
4- this days , I get bored like so easily , I was subscribed in italian classed and i dropped it , I worked with dad for a month & I left the job , Now Im taking french classes and i even feel boring But i didn 't drop the course of course .., I go out with My freinds daily But sometimes i feel bored 2 .
5- So to summarize my personality is
1- Im helpful person 2- full of energy 3- i get bored easily 4- coward person 5- stressed person ..... etc
What annoys Me In My Life
1- My dad annoys me so so Fucking Much , all his behaviors really fuck me up , i DON't hate Him But what he is doing really annoy me ,
a- he always always complains and he is a very spetimistic person , all He is doing to complain , to find a way to make prbs and that 's it
he fights with me sometimes why the kitchen is dirty , he fights with me when he dislike my clothes , he concentrate with me much as well even im 22 years , when he wake up he keep leaving comments about everything & He is Like the mom . he is the one who spends on the house , he orders food , follow with servants & that 's shit as well . he always always shout and complains and he is so nervous really ... everything he make he make it in a nervous way shit .
all the time he says im sick , my stomach pain me my legs bla bla bla ... from the moments he wakes up to the point he sleeps All he is doing complaining , shouting ...
B- I hate the way he deals with my mum as well .
he always fights with her , he doesn't give the chance to follow with the servants or to spend on the house a penny , he hates to the point that every one loves her go and tell him bad words about her without she knows , he barely give her money , he never ever go out with her & She is so poor she doesn't have any friends at all , everyday he just go out to play estimation with her friends and he doesn't give a shit about her , all the time he critic her as well & He is the problem .
c- I hate when i see Mum so nervous without any reason as well
D- My friends are not bad with me But i hate 2 many things about them , the funny thing that the things i hate are common in all my friends
1- sometimes they underappreciate me , i hate when i call them they don't answer me , i hate when they just go with me when they just want 2 to do that , I hate them coz the get jeauloused from me without any reason , I hate when they don 't help me , I hate also when some of them don't give me a chance to talk . Sometimes i just feel they don't care about me , I mean they never showed me or made an effort to show me that they love me... they just use me or know me when they want to .
E- many friends chocked me in mY lIFe and i have reached a situation where i don't trust anyone 2
F- i hate being coward , sometimes when a friend annoy me i can't defend my self at the moments but i can revenge her indirectly
I hate that i get scared from my dad and i should do what ever i see right and even if he is going to hit me . , i hate that im nervous all the time , and i can't even go to the dentist ...
g- I hate that anyone i love is gone from me , My grandma that i love is going to die , she has cancer & I don't want her to pain , i feel so sad when i know she is paining , i even hates that my mum doesn't want me to visit her all the time so i don't feel sad .I loved a friend so much before and for no reason she doesn't want to know me , that 's the way 2 my friends deal with me they Just hate me .
